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Thursday, September 11, 2008

11:17 AM

Somehow I tend to keep things to myself, hoping that it will be fine or better yet, happened the way I have imagined. Its like living in a solitary box, hiding my feelings in the darkest corner where one's eye could never even notice. Much to avoid the fact that it is really heartbreaking, as one should have said ; If you never suffer from agony, you have not experience the whole life obstacles yet. As expected the one I have loved dearly has his limits in purity. But why should I expect more? It has always been like this. Moreover, I have to deal with difficult yet painful situations alone while he make his first way out of everything, handsfree.

Sometimes I wish that feelings doesn't exist. Sometimes I wish the world is better off having people not talking to one another while minding on their businesses. Atleast noone will ever know how it feels to be hurt, betrayed or even stabbed by anyone as we walk forward, facefront and passes people without a word, not even a slight glimpse. Tssk tssk, what a pathetic theory eh?

By now, it reaches to a point where everything is just numb and dull. I indeed, have my sacrifices for him. Infact, I used to have faith in him. But in the end, whats left is me with the world alone. He left me with so much misery that I never will regret. Because I can't afford to waste my time having to regret over stuff that has already happened. What else is there to do but walkaway? Im walking away.
Let bygones be bygones.

sincere.