`i-neh.

Monday, June 29, 2009

1:28 PM

We are official yesterday. A very best day for me, never will I forget that moment sayang. I love you so much.

You know, relationships aint pure without ups and downs. But we are passing an early stage, but dah tah ada down. Huhu. I sad banar but it wont let me down. Its just, somehow I wish he knows how to make me atleast feel okay about it..

I love him, I really do. God, please make it less complicated for us. Huhu.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

12:40 AM

Number busy...
Insecurities.
Negative ba. Huhu :\

trying to throw these bad feelings away, with upmost effort.

Saturday night.

Saturday, June 27, 2009

11:31 PM

Not much is done today but I had fun, hehe. Ani I just got back home and Im so exhausted. Texted my baby but he hasnt replied yet, probably still busy because ada acara at his cousin's place. Hehe. Jahat him tadi because he teased me about flirting and stuff *sayang, cuba ta :D* hehe. So anyway, eventhough I ate quite alot today but I still am hungry. Huhu.

there isnt much to tell, really.
Sayang, I love you with all my heart. I can never see myself loving anyone else but you because you possesed my heart. Id dwell without you baby. Hehe =)

taa.
Reggaeton is rad hot!

Transformer 2.

Friday, June 26, 2009

6:20 PM

Hi again. Straight to the point, I have an outing with the MC family lastnight. We were supposed to watch Transformer 2 at 10plus but somehow every movie theatre Jeff called said the seats were fully-booked. Iatah, teng teng, we watched the 12.10am one in Empire. It was heaps loaded of fun, except for the fact that I was freezing to death. Haha. I rate the movie, 10 out of 10 (Y) really! It is actually the best movie Ive seen so far this year. Eventhough I tak bayar, tak rugi $9 tau, betul betul betul. HAHAHA. I would want to watch it again and again and again. Extra credits for the good graphics, sadang hot main actor and his hot girlfriend. Haha apakan. Enough said.

The movie finished around 2plus and I only reached home at 3. I did told him I was gonna call him lapas the movie and I did, poor baby mono tbangun. Hehe x) I closed my door for love and my heart was hard as stone, but when he came, he took away my heart, which was long ago broken, now strengthened to form a whole new better heart equipped with feelings that I assume no other people have the ability to make that happen but him. See how he has that effect on me, this is just so amazing, I can only call it perfect for me for he is the love of my life. Im just so happy to have him around. Hehe.

ayte. thats all.

Lalala.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

11:23 AM

Hi :D I recovered from my sickness, but my hormones are still messing up my days. Im doing alright though. Hehe. Anywaaays, Im looking forward to go out later. I dont know why but Im uber positive today. I want to meet him yknow, like outside, but I dont know how to ask him bah. Me no guts. Hehe.

I havnt been to the studio like lama sudah. I miss that place yatah. I might go later or tomorrow. Later I doubt pulang cos Im going out with Bils. Hehe. Bah, in for updates later. Miss him so much =)

Hari sakit sedunia.

Monday, June 22, 2009

10:00 PM

I guess everyone in my family is sick right now. Kuat banar virusnya mum ani, huhu. I cant stand being sick like this, bagi kan mengusut saja. Sigh. My dad asked me to atleast makan ruti because I cant barely swallow anything dari tadi and I need to makan ubat jua. Funny how eating can be less enjoyable this way. Urghhh kusut kuu.

I managed to think about only him eventhough Im at my worse state. Atleast now, I feel overwhelmed. Its a really good feeling after keeping this thing away from him. Just a slightest thought of him can make me smile and cheerful for hours. Its like im a kakuna whatever it is, ready to break free. Hehe. Boy, you're just plain amazing.

Btw, tuition was okay tadi. Guess siapa jelama2 nya dalam class? Hj Abu, Muiz, Jimbo and seorang lagi tak ingat but dorang semua from katok. Atleast it wasnt awkward, ada jua kawan kan. Hehe :bb thats all. Baiz. I still dont feel good pasal damam ani, huhu.

Monday blues.

12:17 PM

What a typical boring monday. Guess what, my bodytemperature is increasing, where I call, a very great definiton of sickness. Huhu. Cant stop sneezing and coughing since I woke up and I slept for freaking 9hours! Ani Im just lying down like a sad little chicken, haha. Was supposed to go out with Bil and As later but since ada halangan, terpaksa tah dibatalkan :bb

Lastnight was hectic, still I managed to let it go. I feel better when I let some part out of my mind though he wasnt the one whom I talked to about this matter lastnight. But its okay. Ee, insecurities ani bah like so annoying. Each day I pass by now, scares me more, I dont know why. Sadis usul ku. HAHAHA. Hope its worth it. Nowadays banar, hes unpredictable =] happiness strikes me just like that each time I see or heard of him, apatah lagi when I talk to him. Hehe.

Karang lagi tuition. Aku mcm takut if si Dutton atu mengajar Geo disana. HAHA. NOOOO. Lol.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

10:29 PM

Somethings up and its really bugging me. Sigh. Im keeping away too much of my hurt feelings from him and at some point, I cant stand it anymore. I tried to stay but the longer I cope with it, the closer I am to a heartbroken situation. Please, I need to move on eventhough I know I dont want to.. I cant stand it anymore, pretending that I dont really care, ignoring all the negative thoughts away.. Its true, I do have feelings for him, an uncertain one that can never reach out to him, thats simply because I keep it away from him.
. Huhu..

gila ehh... Sakit banar! Huhu.
Kalau tonight ani mcm dapat reveal everything, huhu. Thats that. Speechless dah.

Again.

8:53 PM

I feel weak seriously, macam kan damam. Hehe, kept on coughing since lastnight. I have no appetite segala ah. I think I got infected by my mom or my brother pasal drg dua damam ah :\

Today is boring! Didnt really do much, watched Intan for the first time, thank god back to back episodenya, so didnt really missed much. Well okay, siuk jua lah that cerita. Haha :D but some part was so confusing, and ada yang bari banci pesennya. Cant wait for the last episode. Hehe.

Batah eh buka sekulah ani, somehow Im tired of this school holiday. Macam there's not much to do, and my mind singkat banar kan belajar, mind you, exams around the corner. Huhu. Oh well.. So bored eh. Ini merindui ia like a lot lot whole load of lot :]

taaaa.

Sunday morning.

8:40 AM

This Id say, I know time will always move on and days are always increasing. People often want to turn back time, I would want to either. But this time, I dont need to think of it, I want to just sit back, relax and enjoy my life though I know there will be one or more obstacles in the way. But hey, who cares when we have decent people around, AKA MY FAMILY & MY BESTFRIENDS.. And yes, HIM :) Its been few months now, seriously, I would never intend to or neither have any thoughts of leaving nor to not have him next to me.

But what if there WILL be a day, where we just have to be away from eachother? Huhu, this feeling scares me to bits yknow. Am I being over-concerned over him? Im never in denial of my feelings for him, really, there's just not much to explain ; Action speaks louder than words.

thats that.
Until next time.

A very cold night.

12:20 AM

I actually dont wanna think of the consequences of getting hurt from being around him everyday but somehow, I assume, one day, there wil be a wall that is going to seperate us, just waiting for the right time. I cant stop it from happening. But they say, better turn your back earlier or you'll suffer more. Thats the thing, I just cant let go. Sigh. I dont know what to do, banarta.

adihaus.

serenity.

Friday, June 19, 2009

8:27 PM

somehow, I miss being around with someone whom I can call the love of my life. really. I miss the feeling of sharing happiness with someone and I miss the feeling of being embrace. somehow, I want some companion through my ups and downs, and through the days and nights. trust me, living alone aint easy at times you want someone who will always gonna comfort us.

I wish to have him being called mine, someone that I will love and cherish in life, someone that I will hold on to and never let go. being around him though there's nothing going on between us, makes me happy. nevertheless, each day is always extraordinary. I cant lie, that it hurts me at times, but somehow hes just a part of me that I cant bear to let go. I dont wish to not be beside him, probably its just too late to let go. heh. hes pretty much my life routine =) a very amazing one. really. haiyaa.

so Im currently at the studio, thanks to Bboy, atleast ada spare hp. hehe. :D oh thats all then. I miss my betprengs, including soul. haha. sikit. macam not much ketawa cuti ani. lalala. well. thats all.

until next time :D

a day of another day. ha.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

12:34 PM

I just got home from school. Heaps of stuff happened tadi and our bond got stronger, my mathmates I mean. Hehe. We cant help ourselves from making jokes out of everything especially when our math teacher came late. We thought of every possible reasons why he was late, and the best was mine. Tapak kasutnya tcabut iatah. Haha. Weird bah.. Didnt really do much in class cos we were having fun, I mean we did some exercises la. Apakan, hehe. Ani im at home, feeling so sleepy. And blur. Hehe. *he makes me smile always =] boy youre so unpredictable, and a mistery is always interesting. i can never be anywhere without you by my side, so do stay =)*

pictures during my life.

Monday, June 15, 2009

7:49 PM

something new lagi.

5:49 PM

whee, I finally get to update my blog yang kurang betauliah ani. hehe. Im at the studio currently relaxing my mind and throwing away everything that bugs me most of the time. seriously, some people might not understand why Im always here.. its just the fact that Im surrounded with variety of music instruments. :D and yes, the people here are very berry multi-talented, i must say. kambang tia nah. hehe.

this year, I assume is the very best year for me so far.. comparing to the other years that have taught me a good lesson in a way which suffered me alot. but hey, there's always time to let go and though I regret everything that had happened in the past, I still stand tall.. somehow.. hehe..

last day of school, us the gugurmatipenari *haha* performed in PDS, currently SMS plg.. haha, tapi macam weird ba if panggil atu. we had a blast and it was worth it. kan? usually we danced bawah tadahan dorang, but now.. alumni saja.. so sad, I miss all those treasurable moments.. huhu. macam atu ba, malayu ku bagus kan. haha. haha. mbah. I wanted to post some pictures pasal dari dulu nada pernah ada. tapi di sebabkan aku malas, iatah malas tah jua so nda menjadi. haha.

somehow I dont get what school holiday means. sama jua homeworks and assignments betimbun :) and I have two days of math holiday class which commenced tadi, tomorrow last day whepee. sangal ku duduk arah lt tu from 8.30 till 11.. kan patah ganya inda badan ku. hehe.
okayyy
so blank.....
*somehow I managed to let these feelings away from attacking him.* :)
teraa.