`i-neh.

i came across with a conclusion.

Sunday, September 7, 2008

11:51 AM

i feel like umm, haha. spill stuffs that is in my mind currently. so --

despite the fact that i know that there are more bitter than sweet, i still love him, Sincerely. i dont know why. its like, i want to love him, the him in him, to accept him the way he already is. suffering from the consequences, im already fond of the pain - jealousy and negative points. though at times i did break down, its because i cant really stand how people talk about the situations we are in. but i know its my fault for complaining. now i stand with my own thoughts, not being egoistic or anything, but i know us better than noone can ever understand. because, i feel him, i have faith in him, i believe in him. call me crazy or insane, but this has been going on for the past 4 months, ups and downs but still im here, i know at some point, he is too.

now hey.. i might sound pretty pathetic and over-confident. but no, its not that im hoping, im not. i'll just let it be for now, whatever happen, happen. cos i kindof understand why i wanted to stay and not leave. cause without him present in my world will make my life dull. nada happiness :\ heheh.

i hope i dont regret posting this. deep banaarr. sighs* (:

woke up like 9-ish in the morning, and slept again ferr abit. ani way energetic to go back to sleep but god i feel sick. must be the rain lastnight, it was extremely cold..

taa.